Mary Barrett was worship leader at Calvary Chapel Merritt Island. In November 2008, God declared that the suffering she had undergone with cancer was complete and called her home.
Mary came to our church (Calvary Chapel Northwest) several years ago, for a “night of worship” on a Saturday night. She also led worship with/for us Sunday morning. I was fortunate enough to be on the schedule that week, so I got to be with her at rehearsal and sing BGV’s for her on some songs that weekend.
Mary also did a handful of songs solo on that Saturday night, including Kathryn Scott’s “Hungry” and Matt Redman’s “Let My Words Be Few”. At the time, I had never heard either song before. Since Mary sang other songs that night that she had written, I assumed that these two were hers, too. And frankly, they should have been. Both songs — especially “Hungry” — fit her voice so well, it was staggering. And they also fit her spirit. When we sang either song later, I always deemed them to be “Mary’s songs” (even after I discovered that she wasn’t the author), and it almost felt sacrilegious for us (or anyone other than Mary) to sing those songs.
The week that I heard that she had died, I was “on”, and “Hungry” was in our set. Even as we started to rehearse, I felt God lift that feeling of sacrilege from me, and heard Him telling me that He had her singing much greater songs now.
I was reminded of all of this recently at my worship leader’s home. He and his wife hosted a dinner for all of us, and we sat around and sang afterward. One of the songs that was picked (”randomly”) was “Let My Words Be Few”. I immediately thought of Mary, and immediately started to miss her. It occurred to me how ridiculous this was — I had only been around her for a few hours, while she was a good friend of my worship leader’s family for many years (and probably had known others in the room better than me, too).
Then it dawned on me. Although she was a wonderful person, the reason that I missed her was how transparent she was as Jesus shined through her. That’s really why I was drawn to her. In just a few hours, I saw Jesus very clearly through Mary’s life.
And that’s the kind of person I want to be.


